Thoughts and Feels

Hello all –

The last couple of months have been fairly transforming for me.  I have been reading a couple of books on sacred sound, I have been working my way towards a daily jogging program, eating well, losing weight and toning up.  I’ve also been getting my studio in order and along with my body, I have been getting my art skills back into shape.  Progress, while slow, is very awesome to see.

I have even been thinking more and more that maybe the time has come to close down ALTP in favour of new projects and new paths.  I came by to take a look around, and I just fell in love with my blog all over again.  <3

I know that things will probably not go back to the way that they were, and I am going to be making a few changes.  I have tried to put together comprehensive Wheel of the Year articles, and I have been working on that page for years.  That page, is one that is going to be retired – I may go back to finish it, but it will be invisible until it is actually finished.  There will be a couple other changes – I’ll post again when they are finished.

There are a few non-blog related projects coming up on the horizon.  I’m not fully sure how they will be incorporated into the blog, but I will figure it out.

I do want to thank you all for coming along for the ride, and being patient with me while I flail about, fluttering here and there.

The Plan 2015

I have been having a ridiculously difficult time writing this post.  Well, writing any posts at all, really.  I have been dealing with a hefty case of the winter blahs, and it has been sapping all of my ability to brain.

I have moments of clarity and inspiration, but by the time I find a pen to write it down, it’s gone.  Free writing/word association has helped a bit with getting the thoughts out of my head, but beyond that, stringing two thoughts together has been a bit of a challenge.  This is a difficult time for me as I still feel that energizing push to travel new paths and learn new things in honour of the new year.

The sunshine of the last couple of weeks has helped to lift the winter fog.  And while it may be a coincidence, I am also going to credit the coming of the Lunar new year.  Yay, Year of the Ram and the season of Pisces!

It’s been more years than I would like to think since I have worked on advancing my own path.  For some strange reason, inspiration tends to strike at right about the same time that I start considering joining teaching traditions.  It would seem that well travelled, nicely groomed and cared for trails generate a “run off and do my own thing” response in me.

Finally, I have settled on exploring the concept of sacred sound – be it chanting, singing, drumming, mantras, etc.  I am interested in delving more deeply into the assorted vibrations that echo through the universe and create change in the world.  I have found a couple of books on Amazon that I am going to be reading through.  If I find them useful, I may review them here.  I haven’t written a book review in a good long time.

I am excited for the warming weather, and the promise of the coming year.  Cheers all!

Resolutions, Self Improvement, and Self Care

ra3I’ve always wanted to be the type of person who says, “I don’t believe in self-improvement.”  Unfortunately, I have to admit that I am somewhat addicted to it.  It’s the whole “new project” aspect of it.  I love starting new things.  Long time readers will know that where I lack is in the finishing.  I’ve started so many projects that haven’t really gone anywhere.  Either I forget, or lose interest.  Really, unless it’s a job, I’m not good at sticking to a schedule.

This year, while I am still compelled to do a full new year clean and cleansing of my home (I am procrastinating on the floors), I am also finding myself waffling on what I want to take on as a new project for the year.  My New Year’s resolution was about meditation and self-care (and doing a little more work on my blog).  Later this week, I am going for my first mani/pedi of the year – I think I will probably go with an Imbolc-y colour.

For the blog, I will probably be going through and overhauling some of the pages, and adding to some of the most popular topics.  I think that perhaps this is the year I need to give myself a break.  Prompted topics, while they can make for some really interesting content, tend to end up feeling like a chore, especially when they are due every week.

I’d like to write more on topics that are interesting to me, regardless of genre.  There are a lot of facets to me, so it can’t hurt to add some more facets to the blog.  I think the category of Pagan Lifestyle has room for all the things that make up me and my life.

One idea I had been tossing around in my head was the thought of contributing to some Pagan magazine sites.  It has been so long since I was up on the whole scene that I think it will take a bit of research to find out which sites are still active and popular – and looking for articles relating to a more secular approach to witchcraft and not only yet another spin on “How to Live a Religious Life”.  We’ll see how that goes.  I know that a lot of publications tend to shut down due to lack of interest/content.

On a positive note, no matter how flighty or lazy I get, this blog will always be here. Happy New Year – may yours be filled with blessings.

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Bill Watterson is the Best

Bill Watterson is the Best

I know I have been neglecting you all terribly, but I have had my head stuck in a novel and … I DID IT!  I won NaNoWriMo!  Not quite finished the story, but I crossed the 50k finish line in 29 days, so that has to count for something.  I am dog tired. <- I like that phrase, tho every dog I’ve ever owned has be undeniably lazy, so I don’t know how apt it is.

I will say that writing a novel in 30 days with toddlers climbing on you is no easy task.  I swear that they have some kind of a radar that tells them when Mommy is busy, so that they can drop whatever it is that they’re doing and come running to chatter or scream at me.  But I muscled through, and now that I am physically exhausted, bring on the holidays!

Haha.  I am going to be spending December catching up on some reading in my spare time between kids, cleaning my sadly neglected house, and the holidays.  I will try to get some more pages updated here.  I will aim for writing up the Yule article for the WOTY page – I had assumed that I had that one written already.

Then my new year’s resolution will be to finish the story I started at NaNo and get it all polished up shiny.  I have also been thinking of finally getting the intro packet from the OBOD.  We’ll see how that goes.

That’s all I’ve got folks.  Talk at ya later!

Kids and Winter Holidays

bells_icons12Halloween has been one of my all time favourite holidays.  From the time I was about 9 or 10 right up until I had my own kids.  Before then, it was Xmas, and after … yeah, Xmas (Yuletide – all those awesome family holidays through the winter months).  I’m not sure if it is that my kids are really young still, or that Calgary’s autumn is unreliable at best, and tending to disappear without notice, but I don’t get that awesome spooky chill that I used to get as October wears down.

What I do get is a kind of nesting/planning compulsion.  Presents, decorations, lights, new coats, new mitts, where are the best sledding hills in our new neighbourhood?  What sort of desserts, casseroles and stews should I make?  My husband mentioned that Halloween is a 20-something’s holiday.  Trick or treating is going out of style, replaced with harvest parties. Decorative gourds stand in for traditional jack-o-lanterns.

The chill in the air doesn’t whisper of secrets and ghosts anymore. It bites and nips with warnings of harsh temperatures and long, deep freezes on the horizon.  And that kind of feeling makes me wish for warm fires and sparkly lights.

Snow hasn’t come for us yet.  Not to stay anyway.  I think that I will take the kids out today to hunt for acorns (if the squirrels have left us any).  Also, I am going to make a pumpkin spice bundt cake.

Life, Leaving Social Media, NaNo, and the Closing of the Year

MusicalPanties-Stock0000216Life decided that it needed my full attention the last little while, and I finally bit the bullet and closed my facebook account.  Leaving FB for good is a little like your New Year’s resolution shouted to the heavens as the party counts down to midnight.  After six and a half years, I know it won’t be easy to stay away.  My short term goal is to make it until January.

Even if I go back then to check in, I feel like I should have enough distance to not have it become a huge part of my life anymore.  Which is the ultimate goal. I can still be reached on Google+ and on Instagram.  They don’t have enough of a draw to become the time sink that FB was.

In the snippets of time that FB used to fill, I have begun learning French.  I have plans to participate in NaNoWriMo this year after a 4 year hiatus, and I am enrolling in the local university.  It’s a pretty awesome feeling to spend my free time doing something useful … useful, AND not laundry!

I am still knitting, and I have a draft of a custom shawl pattern in the works.  I am pretty excited about that.

It is a bit weird to go back to writing after so long away, I haven’t fully embraced my inner story teller in a long while. I have recently dug out my character creation sheets, and hope to spend some time in October fleshing out my story beyond a vague idea.

Wish me luck!  And if any of you out there are into the insanity that is NaNoWriMo, my user name is phae_talon.